All of it

I had what I fondly refer to as a "life explosion" a few years ago, which gave me the sense that I was living inside of Murphy's Law all day every day for several years on end. It was terrible, and I am not going to waste your time and my breath trying to paint a picture of how bad things got. But you wouldn't be reading this if it hadn't happened, because one of my coping mechanisms is finding suitable distractions, and so I committed to learning *all* of astrology and I had a lot of time to devote to it because the other options were languishing or feeling sorry for myself.

I did spend multiple years looking for the smoking gun: what was it that caused it all or made it so bad? Why did I not bounce back, because I'm normally a pretty resilient person?

So here's a list of what I had going on astrologically at the time:

Neptune square JupiterNeptune square UranusNeptune beginning to conjunct VenusTransiting south node in the 12th houseSaturn conjunct JupiterSaturn conjunct UranusSaturn square VenusProgressed moon in the 12thSolar arc moon square SaturnSolar arc Saturn conjunct JupiterUranus sextile sun*Uranus square MercuryChiron conjunct MarsPluto sextile Venus*Pluto sextile Mars*

Normally when I read for someone who's having a tough time, the list of transits I can find is about half the length of that list. Also, to be fair, I starred (supposedly) friendly transits, but the only one of those that is truly friendly is Uranus sextile sun, because even friendly aspects from Pluto can still fuck you up. But believe me: I have scoured charts from this time period to find *the one thing* that did this the way that an obsessed white woman tries to solve a cold case on message boards. I needed someone to shake me and say "bitch, it was ALL of it." (Yes, this is how I talk to myself.)

What's really important to note about that list: it's heavily 12th house-centric for me, because Neptune, the south node, and Chiron were in my 12th house by transit and my Venus and Mars are there natally. Twelfth house issues are things beyond your conscious control, and tend to inundate you with issues that aren't your fault and you can't do much about except wait for the dust to settle. Also 12th house matters: sleep and psychic activity. I stopped sleeping through the night and experienced feelings of foreboding constantly. For YEARS.

I'd also like to remind you of transit math: if you want to be a good-ass astrologer and you understand half of what I'm saying, get yourself a copy of Bernadette Brady's Predictive Astrology, which discusses what I call "transit math" and always try not to mangle when I explain it:

Natal location of planet (cause) + location of transit (cause) = houses ruled by both the natal and transiting planet in chart (outcomes)

So a transit in my 12th house of a 12th house planet had outcomes in other areas of my life, or said another way: because of overwhelming shit I had no control over, stuff in my life changed profoundly. And from that list of transits above, here are the houses ruled by planets impacted by those transits (I'm not including the progressions): 1, 2, 3, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12. Only houses missing: 4 and 5. I didn't have any warm and fuzzy feelings, and I didn't have any fun 😆

I'm not gonna lie: when you encounter someone really going through it, they're usually experiencing some outer planet transits like that list that dominate their chart for an extended period of time. But this is also why astrology can be a super helpful tool, because there ARE ways to cope and make the most of your time bonding with planetary titans and the energy they bestow upon you, and that's why I do what I do.

XO,J

P.S. Hit me up for spirit guide readings or if you want me to take you through your personal 2023 energy.