When keeping it real goes wrong

I'm burnt out on the astrology of the current sky at the moment (and the political climate, which I will not be discussing the astrology of because angry me is not a good look), so I'm doing something different in hopes I get my mojo back.

I was doing a reading for someone with enough Scorpio that they were just sitting and (death) staring at me, waiting for some magic to come out of my mouth. It felt less like a reading and more like a standoff. They probably didn't realize they were being all Scorpio-ish, but a lot of times people with Scorpio energy will want you to see their issues and desperately want to hide their issues simultaneously. It's nice to be seen and recognized but also terrifying, so that's the push-pull. I get it (I'm guilty of this behavior myself, sometimes). A different person I read for with Scorpio energy hides "the real problem" like it's a series of nesting dolls: the presenting problem is never the actual problem, so "solving" it is unsatisfying to us both: like scratching an itch that isn't there. It sounds frustrating, and it is, but it's typical for the energy. I've learned to let the chain of "...but really what I'm upset about" play itself out rather than jumping in with solutions to the first thing. The problem here is they know the answer to their issues already, they just want an answer they like more. Life is like that, though, and no amount of psychic creativity can sidestep a situation with shitty options. In this case, this person is choosing to suffer instead of giving another person an overdue rude awakening. I get that it's a rock and a hard place, but usually life won't let you pass go and collect $200 until you suck it up and deal with what's in front of you.

Generally, with psychic stuff, I can only see 1. what you're ready to see and 2. what you're willing to let me see (when people are hiding stuff on purpose it's like a wall I can't see through, so I respect that and switch topics), so when I'm reading for new clients, there's something of an onboarding process, as you will find in any new relationship where you're sharing information. In most cases, I'm a stranger, so it's awkward, but it can also be liberating to share a bunch of stuff, get some answers, and be on your merry way. I prefer reading for strangers because when people who know me in real life find out about my abilities or are on the receiving end of them, they start to look at me like I'm a savant who sees all (trust me, I'm not looking. I have many mundane concerns that take up my time and attention). Readings usually wind up being a rewarding experience, but there are certain cases that are awful, which include when someone is determined to beat a dead horse or has sacrificed all agency in their lives and things are just kind of happening to them while they watch.

Dead horse beaters just want to win. The fight is over, and everyone has gone home, and this person is replaying every instant of a fight again and again, trying to figure out whether they would have won if they'd moved their feet differently in one instant or ducked in a different instant. These are usually the relationships you can't let go of because you don't agree with their outcomes (they don't have to be romantic relationships but they usually are).

Agency sacrificers are the bane of my existence.

Actually, let me say it a different way: Neil deGrasse Tyson talks about what conspiracy theorists have in common, which is that they start from the conclusion that they want and will filter the information they are willing to accept as valid, rejecting anything to the contrary. Agency sacrificers are victims, and they're not interested in any evidence that they can suck it up and make important or necessary changes to their lives that they are living. The conspiracy in this case is that life is just happening to them and they can't do anything about it (and everything is unfair). The reality is actually that the agency sacrificer is probably making numerous unhealthy decisions simultaneously, making digging out of their problems an endeavor rather than a quick fix. What they need more than anything is an accountability buddy who helps them identify and stop self-defeating behaviors, which is really more the realm of therapy than a fun hour-long reading (I am therapy's biggest fan, for the record). We're all guilty of sacrificing agency from time to time, often because we don't know any better, or were raised to defer to our oppressors, which is hard to un-learn. But in these cases, growing up means accepting that you have to change, and actually working to make changes. Again, I can't psychically help with this, I can just tell you when you've sacrificed all agency, but that won't be news to you.

I think 95% of my readings are rewarding for us both: I like helping people, and my clients get answers and usually come back for more readings in the future. I realized lately, though, that I've been saying "I know you don't want to hear this, but..." all the time. As it's coming out of my mouth, I'm surprised and thinking "how do I know they don't want to hear it?" but just like any psychic work, I just say what I'm shown, which is usually not 100% what the person wants to hear. There's this feeling I get that means "they will not want to hear it but say it anyway," so I do. In a way, I'm proud of that, because I'm not going to waste our time and your resources and give you some bullshit that's incorrect but makes you feel good. I will get you good information that you can work with, and if I can't do that, I will tell you. This is not my day job, so I would rather not do a reading at all if it's going to suck, and if you're not ready to hear actual answers (due to dead horse beating or agency-rejecting), it IS going to suck. I have personal horror stories of bad readings I've received in the past (they're part of my woo origin story) and the consequences of following the bad advice I was given—just ask and I'll tell you of the fiascos—so I never want someone to have that kind of experience.

While I’m not talking about the current sky right now, here’s a video on what it looked like when Obama got famous really quickly, which I realize is talking about a politician but I’m okay with my inconsistency because it’s in the past.