Mutant moons

Here's one thing that took me forever to understand: moons with conjunctions. I have Neptune and the south node conjunct my moon (the south node is like Saturn in its influence--it's a constricting factor). When I read the definition of a Capricorn moon, I identified with it. When I read the definition of a Pisces moon (ruled by Neptune), I identified with it. Part of the problem (for me) is that Neptune clouds the issue, whatever the issue may be. Some of you might have perfect clarity on how your moon with a conjunction behaves, but if you have a Scorpio moon conjunct Uranus, you might identify with the definition of an Aquarius moon and a Scorpio moon and be at a loss as to why this is. This is a niche subject: most of you do NOT have things conjunct your moon, but I am writing it for the people who are utterly lost and googling, because I think it's not the easiest concept to understand, primarily because the moon represents your subconscious. It's needs you're not always aware you have, and conjunctions are energies that are fused together. You can't have one without the other (as much as I would like to.)

Whatever sign your moon is in, it is going to require the things associated with that sign to feel good. Libra: harmony or someone to bounce things off of. Taurus: creature comforts. Aries: yelling*. Whatever planet is conjunct that moon, your moon ALSO needs to do things associated with it in order to feel good. Mercury: talking, thinking, reading, taking in information, running errands. It's that simple. So someone with a Pisces moon conjunct Mercury might read the definition of a Gemini moon and get confused, because they need to do Pisces things to feel good, but they also need to do Gemini things to feel good. Which is it? It's a Pisces moon that eats information for breakfast. Feed it both themes and you'll be good.

My Capricorn moon conjunct a Sagittarius Neptune is a fun cosmic joke. I need to do earth-moon things like be really reality-focused in order to feel comfortable, but thanks to Neptune, I also need to do psychic things to feel good. Getting things done comes naturally to me, but so does talking to spirit guides. Those are the plusses. The minuses are I never know how I feel in the moment, and if I do feel a feeling I often doubt the feeling, but I am very, very aware of how OTHER people feel. Moon is feelings, Neptune is psychic shit and confusion. Every day's an adventure.

It's a commonly accepted phenomenon that most people dislike their moon signs. It's annoying to need things you don't want to need, and the moon is where you're vulnerable, so most people don't want to admit "yeah I have a Sagittarius moon and I need to get far away from you, fast (no offense)." Or "I have a Leo moon WHY ARE YOU NOT PAYING ATTENTION TO ME." Make peace with your moon as quickly as possible, because fighting your needs is dumb.

The happy medium I have right now is I go to my day job, in which I deal very much with reality all day, like real, tangible problems that need to be fixed ASAP, and my Capricorn delights in the routine and the problem-solving, and my Neptune likes helping and being of service. Then I go home and I do spirit guide readings, I talk to my fellow intuitives, I meditate, and I pay attention to my dreams, and that feeds the Neptune side, and I maintain enough of a routine and a connection to "normal" life that the Capricorn side doesn't get too upset or feel like I'm too much of a space case. But I need to do both. If I don't feed the Neptune side regularly, it starts to leak out into my day job, and it is NOT cool if you're having a normal-person conversation and start passing along information from someone's dead grandmother. That's fucking weird. So I have routine (Capricorn) times that I Neptune-out on purpose, and then everything stays in balance. If I don't feed the Capricorn side, I feel unstable and ill-at-ease. As I write this, I haven't been in my office for 12 days, and I've been doing a bunch of readings, and I just want to go to work so badly so I can feel normal again. I like working. I know it's weird, but it's very Capricorn.

🌙 ,J

*I like my jokes.