Solving mysteries over here

My exploration of Richard Idemon's work continues, and I'm seriously excited about it, because his perspective was very different from that of a lot of astrologers, and I love a hot take that seems to work. I have spent many hours at this point staring at charts and looking at dominant and inferior functions of people I've known, and going "oooooh." Imagine having 800 lightbulb moments in a week. That's the vibe over here.

One of the personal realizations I had floored me, and it was this: if a person has a single planet by modality (cardinal, fixed, mutable), orientation (personal, social, or universal—and you can get a sense of what I mean by that in my previous post), or element (water, earth, fire, air), AND that planet is Neptune, I've had significant problems with that person of the victim-savior variety. Here's why: having a singleton (what we call those lone planets), puts special emphasis on that planet, and it's considered an inferior function (Jungian term, bastardized for astrological use). People either work very, very hard to overcorrect their inferior function, or they disown it. I've talked before about disowning energy, but basically any time you expect someone to play a role for you so that you feel better, you're setting yourself up for disappointment.

I personally have Neptune on the south node of the moon (meaning it's energy I'm very comfortable with) and it's conjunct (next to) my midheaven (or "top of the sky"). When things are conjunct your midheaven, you appear to BE that energy, even if you don't personally identify with it. So if you had the sun there, for example, people might look to you for leadership and optimism, while you experience consternation and wonder why you have to be in charge all the time. Most people do not have planets on the midheaven, but if you do, it's a unique experience, because your leadership roles (a midheaven thing) tend to be tied up with whatever energy is there. (In a lesser sense, whatever sign you have on your midheaven is telling about your leadership style and the types of careers you might choose. If interested, read The Astrology of Success by Jan Spiller.)

Like I said, I'm very comfortable with Neptune energy. Psychic shit = Neptune energy. I was raised in two different religions = Neptune energy. I'm constantly helping people with shit = Neptune energy. I don't have much of an ego = Neptune energy. I'm comfortable with emotional gray areas = Neptune energy. Vibes = Neptune energy. I've said too much about myself already, but I'm trying to make a point here.

Most people are NOT comfortable with the mysteries of the universe. The concept of vibes makes many uneasy. I'm used to sussing out how much woo people can handle, and I'm careful to go easy on those whose tolerance is low. But if you've got an inferior function Neptune, let me tell you: I look very appealing, because I appear to be this energy that you don't understand and to an extent are hungry for, but uneasy about. So this is a pattern I've had again and again and again: people think that I contain The Answers and then they get disillusioned (=Neptune) when either "the answers" don't work for them OR I display human properties (like not being eternally available to help them all the time, or give them exactly what they want). I can be an asshole and I get frustrated easily, and neither of those jive with embodying Neptune.

I once had a boss, who I now know was in this small population of people, who gave me an impossible task and then told me to "work magic." How do you think that went? I've had people be appalled that I deigned to watch Keeping up with the Kardashians (back when it was popular). Or when I volunteered that cake was my favorite food (no longer true). Or that Airplane! is my favorite movie (still true). But when you're held to an impossible standard (=Neptune on midheaven, specifically, and then the south node there is similar, so double trouble for me), there's not much room for being human. In other people's minds, anyway.

One of these inferior Neptune people once asked me to bring a fire pit to her house party, and I had to explain that 1. no and 2. it wouldn't fit in the trunk of my car (while wondering "are you high?"). I didn't live close by, either. The rare times I've pushed back and asked why I'm expected to do stuff that isn't expected of others, these people stop and realize they don't have a good answer. The crazy expectations happen a lot. Like, a lot.

You know what happens when you don't fulfill someone's expectations, even if the expectations are bonkers? Resentment. So this list of people—and I want to again clarify that it is a short list—is one of people with whom there was mutual but inexplicable (=Neptune) resentment. Previously, I had no reason I could point to to explain the devolution of these relationships. Now, at least I have a theory that makes sense: they made me Neptune and got mad that I couldn't live up to it (and I got mad at the constant and/or unreasonable demands, and in some cases, acted out). And that's what I love about astrology: explanations for specific phenomena when previously there weren't any.